sicky.

blah. It sucks being sick, in any way, shape or form. Last week was awful. the pains were horrific. tomrw I have an atrocious doctors appointment that has me mega scared. I checked online how the procedure works and it looks so painful. urgh. I want to get all of this over with and see if they finally find wats wrong with me. I can't afford to loose days of work..need that $$ for Paris trip in november..yay! so excited for that. I can't wait. The only thing that gets me a little worried is the whole flight over to France, wat with all these airplane problems lately..oh well...so yea..I'll update tomrw after my doc appt..and transformers tomrw night..yay! lol =p

Droopy Eyes

had not been on here for some time now. two months or so. ewk. oh well. alot to talk about, though i rather not get all depressing on you. so lets just talk about the happy stuff. i "plan" on going to paris this november. have been over excited ever since i decided to go. i managed to get 10 days off from work and already booked the hotel. been looking up airline tickets and have found good deals. so 'yay' for that. im planning on going with my mother, my little brother and my boyfriend...hopefully.

bad things always present themselves at moments when you think youre the happiest so regardless of how happy i am for my trip, i am very depressed for many reasons. things, day by day, get from bad to worse. at work today, i started crying and my supervisor had to give me time off the phones for me to cool down, which proved to be hard to do. *sigh* i wish i didnt have so mush debt, wish could get rid of my car, have no worries, be happy and be respected and loved by others. i want to be able to trust and not have to cry again.

sorry...i promised i wouldnt get all depressive on here. ewk.

so anyways, i'll try updating on here again. ive abandoned you and i apologize =D

shamwow.

urgh. stress.

so, williams graduation was great. FINALLY. lolz. the demo reel/portfolio review was fun actually, tiring but fun. he did great and i am so so proud of him. now to get him a j.o.b

school is uurrgghh. i need this semester to end. geez. two more weeks. im prolly failing like 2 classes, which sucks cotton balls! watever. i cant wait til fall semester, i can finally start focusing on my major (asian studies/chinese) so i can finally start taking my language classes. summer semester is gonna suck. all the classes that i need are only offered in the afternoon and i have a crap as job that makes me work from 3:00pm until 9:00pm so im royally screwed. had to take just one, online, class, which sucks even more because now i have to pay an ADDITIONAL $200 for the damn online class...i hate my job.

watever..if for fall semester i cant get my majors classes in the AM and i dont get a good work schedule, quitting, here i come.

so yea. im tired. hungry (though we ordered sooo much pizza last night) i wanna get out of here (i'm at work, speaking of the devil)

so pues si (like my baby says)

i'll try to update sooner than later.

^ ^ domi

*poke*poke*

nuffin new. well yea, kinda. william is gonna graduate!!! finally! that damn school of his was giving him the run-around but he managed. his demo reel was great and mhm..cool. he presents his demo at the broward convention center this thursday from 9am-12pm..(go see).. along with everyone else's portfolios. then at 5pm, that same day, is his graduation. so exciting. graduatin college, tre' cool. i am so so so so far from graduating. sucks actually. ive been doing so bad. been on probation for the past two semesters, and imma be failling like 2 more classes this semester, prolly gonna get kicked out..lol..so bad...iuno wat happened to me. i was so good, as is known, but two, almost three years of being away, no school, just work, really killed me. uurrgghh. so upsetting. cant wait til fall semester. gonna start taking chinese and focusing on my major and not all these crap classes. anyways. im so excited! i took off work today to make up a class that id be missing to be able to go to williams portfolio/graduation. (couldnt make up the class either way, so mad) we..i have an A in that class, shouldnt hurt 'that bad'..blah. so yea. dont know wat classes to get for summer A..prolly just one, maybe two classes, hopefully online..we'll see. anyways. i have several ideas of what to get william as a graduation gift. i already got him the street fighter 4 tournament edition sticks, that cost me a freaking leg on ebay, but i want to get him something else. he wants: the Neverender: Children of the Fence Edition Coheed and Cambria new album, he wants Resident Evil 5, a hand held vacuum cleaner (lol) among other trinkets. siigghh..i'll figure it out. i'll end up getting them all..lol.. love i tell ya.
mhm.. so..well.. i'll write back tomrw after i get out of his graduation. all should go if you're his friend. he'll love it. maybe dinner after? we'll see =p

^ ^
Domi

graduation.

so. had not updated my blog in a while (http://www.abysweets.blogspot.com/) been super busy with work, school and helping my boyfriend, william out. my baby finally graduates next thursday and im so excited for him. he's getting his B.A in Video Game Art/Design and i think thats pretty cool. he's been so busy finalizing his demo reel, its been crazy. but today is the day. the moment of truth. he turns in his final reel and all that comes along with. i know he'll do great yet im so anxious. im here, home, waiting for his text telling me how he did. everynight, for the past 2-3 weeks ive been helping him best i can. pobresito, last night he didnt sleep at all. kissed him good bye this morning and sent him off. awww im so excited. rofl...gets me sad too though, he's graduating...and i am SO far off of graduating. urgh. this is what happens when i let work get ahead of school..urgghh!! we..it'll be ok. so. yea. i'll update again soon. have to write what ive been working on as a side project. cute stuff i say =p

domi ^ ^

origami.

papercrafting. its my thing. my hobby. && i love it. cubeecraft is the best. when i get money back from my taxes, imma have a kinkos trip worth a couple dollars to print cubees. it will be a party, a cubee party..consisting mainly of myself and maybe william..perhaps wilson. anywho's. in december, 08, i bought me this calendar thingy for my job where every day its an origami fold, base and/or model. its the bestest. my desk at work is full of origamis everywhere. the best part is that every day/page is a different paper color, with pretty prints and all. i love it. i love paper hearts, tulips, penguin, panda, pig, seals, boxes, dogs, etc etc. im obssesed ;p
i was thinking i should start recordin tutorials on papercrafting/origami, instructional videos to post on youtube and here as well. shall be cool. for my own pleasure. keeps me busy when im sad, depressed, alone and/or bored. lolz. oh well.

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bleh.

i hate not knowing. not being able to find out. i absolutely detest being lied to. i wanna believe every word that is said to me, but urgh its so hard. somethings are simply too hard to believe. how are they possible. and its so careless the response i get back. like it matters not. i dont deserve that. fuck, i wanna believe, but past events have led me to make my heart a little tougher. i care too much. i love too much. ive been lied to too much. it will not happen again that i get taken for a fool. maybe im just paranoid, due to the fact that the past has made me this way. i might be mistaken, but sadly i have no way of knowing whether i am or not. one thing i do know, for a fact, if i ever find out, again, that ive been lied to, again, it will be the end of it. the end of this. and you will regret the day you decided to mess with my heart.

UP!

its a known fact. i love disney. for me, its def. the happiest place on earth. i love every single disney/pixar movie thats ever been made. starting with toy story, to a bugs life, to monsters inc, to nemo, to the incredibles, to ratatouille and my favorite, WALL-E!! they have a new movie coming out on may 29th called UP and it looks great...lolz..im such a kid. i cant wait for it to come out! awww.. ^ ^

asian studies.

so im kinda very excited about the major i finally decided on persuing. asian studies with a certification in chinese studies/language. i would love love loooove to do a couple semesters abroad...would be teh coolest! rawr! i always wanted to do something with a foreign language..originally i wanted spanish..but i took spanish for like 10 years from elementary to high school...its just to easy..chinese would be great..urgh i cant waits! lolz

william just laughed when i told him. he was happy actually..asked me why i wouldnt go for japanese instead (he's betraying his motherland china ;p ) and he also mentioned he would tell his father so that he could help me out when it comes to refining my chinese when i start learning it...lolz...omg'osh..shall be fun

domi ^ ^

Cry.sys!

im going through a mid-mid-life crisis. ive no fuckin idea wat imma do with school. ive always wanted to do something with science. so i decided a whiiile back to stick with envirnmental engineering. urgh! why math! i hate math. everything about it. science has alot of math, specially any engineering field. so im screwed. ive been doing horribly in my classes. eewk! so imma have to change my major. what with work and shitz, i have no time to dedicate to school, or atleast the required amount of time, wich sucks ballz. i wish id didnt have to work but its a must. im so fucking far behind. all my friends are graduating. william graduates in a month. and ive got years to go. this is bullshit. i suck. lolz. i wanna do sumffin artsy, yet science i still wanna do, yet i dunno. i DUNNO! i dont want math classes, so im fucked for a science 'sumffin' major...i was thinking asian studies. that should be fun. i like history &&& i have to learn an asian language. chinese here i come..roflz. the second i tell william i wanna do asian studies he'll call me a rascist, him and his chinese ass..yummy! urgh. i'll figure this out.

*celebrate and dance so free* woooo!

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Unrequited Love.

"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms. . Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms."

-The Holiday

"I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade."

-The Holiday


My all time favorite movie quotes!! ^ ^

Street Fighter quattro!

sooooo. i got william street fighter4 tournament edition for xbox. cost me an arm and a leg on ebay but it was worth it. he loved it and couldnt be more excited..seeing as Street Fighter is his all time favorite game. therefore, im happy. though he graduates march 26, i adviced him that this was his graduation gift and he accepted..lolz. so its pretty sweet. plays great and the game is cool too. williams on cloud nine...so yah.

anywhos *yawn* im tired. havent gone to school in like a couple of days..thats a sign of me failin atleast one class this semester..again.. geez i need to get back on track with things and stop being so lazy...urgh. i wish i could be somewhere near graduating, but ive yrs to go...lucky my babe that graduates in a month..i needa plan some sort of graduation party or get together or sexual surprise for him ^ ^

anyways..i'll update again..needa study. whack-ass chemistry test on wednesday and i havent gone to that class in like a month = death!

=p

party time...not.

so its been very chill for me for a long while. its mostly just william and myself, maybe wilson at times, or one of my brothers. i miss going out with people to the movies and getting together at someones home and just eating crap. i know william misses it too. he misses his friends so much, but either they dont like me or he just doesnt wanna bother, seeing his ex is always around with his friends. makes me sad that ive deprived him from his friends, but i dont believe it should be so. people need to get over it. a couple of my friends dont like him very much because of his ex girlfriend but they dont care he's with me now. they deal with it because theyre my friends. should be the same for him, but everyones different. either way, im alone down here. most of my friends are up in gainesville or daytona or just busy with life. my day usually consists of school in the morning, work til 9pm, home for a sec, williams house. im happy, dont get me wrong, i guess its nice to have people around. i know its been specially tough for william because his friends used to be around him all the time before, now theyre not. for me its rather easier, as ive always been alone. meh what ever. im happy either way. i love william very much and things are going good. maybeh they get better soon. oh wells.

love my sweets.

-domi

predominately stable...maybeh.

mhm. seems all goes good for the time being. im expecting better times ahead as things become clearer. all in all, im happy. never been better as a matter of a fact.

i will be jotting down my thoughts hereafter. as a form of self help? perhaps...nah. for kicks and giggles.

meh. love my sweets.

-domi